I’m 16 years old, I have brunette hair that has some blue highlights, I’m an only child, and a studious person. I grew up (I was born in Britain but my family moved when I was five years old. in Britain but that was only until I was five years old. My dad’s work makes us move a lot, which I don’t always mind. Through the years I’ve met some awesome people, a couple of them are still in my life while others have just come and gone. I will admit that I do miss having a few of them in my life because I still have so many memories of them, but that time has past and I’m living in a new chapter.
Social media and cellphones are amazing. I mean, if I want to find an old friend, or someone I just met, all I have to do is look them up on Facebook and boom, I know almost everything about them. It sounds so stalkerish but it’s true. :P
I remember the day I started thinking about the guy I had my first real crush on. He was so cute, with the hair that he had to flip out of his eyes (which are blue like the ocean). His name is William. Will for short. We were good friends when I first met him but that all changed when I found out my best friend, Taylor, liked him too. I ended up (changing schools) so I eventually stopped thinking about him after a while.
But almost eight years later, something triggered a memory of him and I wondered what he was up to nowadays. I searched his name on Facebook, and sure enough, there he was. He looked exactly the same, minus looking more grown up and mature. I sent him a friend request which he accepted straight away. I was over the moon! I thought that maybe it was finally the time where he noticed me as me and not as Taylor’s BFF.
We started talking on and off but it never really went anywhere. To be honest I actually kept embarrassing myself or saying the wrong thing. At the time, I’d never liked someone so much and I had no idea what to do or say that would make him interested. My parents disapprove of dating so I kept our conversations a secret even though there was nothing going on to brag about.
A couple months after we reconnected, I went to the USA and told him that I was there. He started to flirt a little when he was texting me so I got pretty excited to see him. When we did meet we met at the mall. He was an hour late, which did not please my mom, but I forgave him as soon as I saw him. His eyes were bluer than they were eight years ago and he was so tall. We walked around a mall together, which was sorta awkward, but we talked and laughed a lot so I enjoyed it. When we said goodbye he kissed me. We were hugging when he lifted my chin up and looked down into my hazel eyes and leaned forward. The kiss was sweet and amazing. My whole body tingled and I didn’t want it to end.
We didn’t talk much after that, in fact barely ever. Up until the end of the year we had only texted each other a couple times but they never led into a long conversation. Around Thanksgiving time we started talking again. Like really talking!
I would wake up in the morning and see a Snapchat from him or he would just Snap me as soon as he woke up. He was hanging with his family in the mountains and still took time to text me. This was the time he started to call me "babe". I had never been called that before so it was all new to me. We Facetimed at least once a week and would stay on the phone for over an hour. He would mouth that he loved me and form half hearts with his hand which I would complete with my hand. When we would text, he would send me tons of kisses. It felt so good to be acknowledged by someone who I thought was pretty cool.
At New Year’s Eve, he told me he was going to FaceTime me so we could watch the ball drop together. There is a 7 hour time difference so I got up really early to have a quick shower and call him 2 minutes before the countdown began. We counted down together and then talked for another hour. I was getting ready for work so I had to clean my teeth which would’ve been embarrassing, except that he cleaned his teeth with me! We laughed about it all the time and even cleaned them together another time just for the heck of it :P My mom thought it was so weird, but we didn’t care. My parents never knew what we were talking about or all the kissy faces we sent each other. I think if they did, they would've told me that I wasn’t allowed to talk to him anymore.
As the months went on we continued talking and I fell more and more in love. I couldn’t believe how amazing he was and just how sweet. He was my first real crush as a kid and here he was sending me kisses and calling me babycakes and his princess. I couldn’t possible want more. That was until Jeremy showed up.
Jeremy came to the village I live in to be a student here and learn about the country for 4 months. He would come to the Bible meetings my dad held every Saturday night and we became friends. I was talking to Will that night and told him that there was a 18 year old coming to the meeting. I started praying that he wouldn’t be cute but as soon as I saw him I heard my mind say, “Oh, shoot.” He looked younger than 18 but had the flippy hair that I love. I told Will that he had nothing to worry about and we started talking normally. But deep down I knew I wanted to crack this shy boy and get him to talk. He barely said 5 words the first time I met him and it ended up taking about 2 months to have a full conversation with him. Little did I know that he had feelings for me.
Over the next couple of months Will and I were counting down until I would come out to America again. My dad had told me it was going to be in July but there was always the possibility it would be later. However, my dad found out he had a lung condition and heard about a great doctor who lived in Alabama. I automatically started begging him to take me and within a week we were in America. I was over the moon to be back and couldn't wait to see Will. So much drama had happened between me and Jeremy, so I was happy that I would finally have a chance to see Will and I thought that if I did that my feelings for Jeremy would disappear.
Will had been quite distant the past few weeks before I went to the USA and he still was when I was there. My family and I traveled a lot so I told him that I would be near where he lived at the end of the last week I was there. It all went downhill from there.
I was having breakfast with a friend of my dad’s when I got a text from Will saying that he was going to his grandparents house the weekend I was supposed to be near him. This of course disappointed me so I excused myself and ran to the bathroom. My mom couldn’t see that I was crying over a guy so I had to act like everything was fine. This was a very hard thing to do. We had a 9 hour journey ahead of us and I was silent almost the whole way because I knew that if I spoke I would break down into tears and they wouldn’t stop.
We made it to a friends house and I was just praying and hoping that Will’s mom would tell him that he could stay when he asked her if he could. But that never happened. He fell asleep before he could ask and then didn’t even bother the next morning. And for the next 2 days I didn’t hear a word from him. Luckily I was too busy with friends and going to an amusement park with Jeremy to care.
The day at the amusement park was so much fun! Jeremy and I went on almost all the rides and I got so scared at some points that I had to hold his hand, which I know he liked. We’d held hands before so it wasn’t really a big deal to be doing it again. I was too busy thinking about how tall and scary the next ride was to worry about what Will was up to or something who he was meeting.
It was bitter sweet to say goodbye to Jeremy so we just hugged goodbye and immediately started texting each other :P Jeremy is a great guy but I don’t usually have two guys liking me at the same time so this was all new territory for me. A part of me liked the affection but the other felt like I was being mean to Will. I was giving up on chasing Will and was finally letting him go when I got a text.
After 3 days of no talking, Will finally texted me and he just said “Hey” like nothing was wrong. I automatically became super mad and just said hi with a period. This got his attention and he asked why I was mad at him. I asked if he had asked his mom about staying home and when he that he hadn’t, I knew that it was going to be over. I just told him that sorry wasn’t good enough and didn’t hear from him again for over 3 days.
When I was hanging out with Jake and his friends, I saw that a girl had taken my place as number 1 on snapchat which told me that he wasn’t too busy to talk, he just didn’t want to talk to me. This was the last straw. I text him to ask if he actually wanted to be together and after Jake asked him a lot of good questions, which Will just answered “idk,” he finally said that we should break up.
I was upset but not too upset because I had had a week to get over him before we had actually broken up. My parents kind of knew something was going on so I just said that Will and I had had a fight and that was the end. Only 2 weeks after we had broken up, Will had gone into another relationship with a girl he had probably just met. That just showed me that he had really stopped caring.
I tried to move on with Jeremy but that has proven difficult. I’ve never been one to move on within a couple days. It took me over 3 years to get over my first boyfriend and even then I’m not sure if I’m fully over him.