I first started to get migraines back in 2010. The longest one I’ve ever had occurred while I lived in England and lasted for three months. However, during my time in Israel I’ve only had a couple of migraines and they were nowhere near as long, or painful, as the three month one. Unfortunately, this one seems to be acting like the one I had in England.
Having a migraine is really no fun. Some people may not believe that a headache could last as long as mine, I don’t even believe it sometimes, but they do. I know there are many people who would kill to have the “break” I’m having, but I can assure you that it’s no merry-go-round. Yes, the only things I able to do are lay in bed and read books, but for a girl like me, it gets old.
Today, I feel as if I want to burst into tears and give up all together. I’m so sick of being unable to do things and constantly feeling guilty because my mom has almost no help. I can barely stand up for more than five minutes, let alone clean the house or cook dinner for everyone. That’s not me, I love running about and having projects to do.
Right now, I’m sitting in the kitchen, trying to ignore the screaming pain in my head, and asking God why He’s not clearing it. So many people have prayed for me, my parents pray over me all the time, but there is no relief. It even feels like it gets worse after someone touches my head and prays. I know God has caused this for a reason, I’m just praying He would tell me why.
I don’t mean to complain. I usually keep it all inside or write it in a page that no one will see, but my physiotherapist told me that it’s time to let it out and talk. To be honest, talking isn’t my strong suit, writing is. I guess that’s why I could hear my laptop calling to me when I came downstairs.
But, even in the midst of my pain, I find hope in the Lord. I know that He will provide for me and heal me. No matter how excruciating the pain gets, I find strength in Him and His Word. “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.” 1 John 4:18
Whenever I start to feel down or restless, I open my Bible and find scriptures about those things. As soon as I read them, peace and rest wash over me. :) I feel really led to share some of these encouraging scriptures with you:
1 Corinthians 1:5-9 “For in him you have been enriched in every way—with all kinds of speech and with all knowledge— God thus confirming our testimony about Christ among you. Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.”
2 Kings 20:5 “…I have heard your prayer and seen your tears; I will heal you…”
Mark 11:24 “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
Jeremiah 17:14 “Heal me, Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.”
2 Corinthians 4:18 “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
Psalm 30:2 “Lord my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me.”
Isaiah 35:4 “say to those with fearful hearts, ‘Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.’”
Romans 8:18 “ I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.”
Romans 8: 26-30 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.”\
Psalm 55:22 “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.”
Psalm 121:2 “I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from my help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.”
And last, but certainly not least, Mark 5:34 “He said to her, ‘Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.’”