This week, I began learning what it means to wait on YHVH and listen to what He's saying to me. Though I didn’t have to wait as long as some people do, the answer to my question didn’t come until I’d completely surrendered it all over to YHVH. How often do you ask YHVH about what you should do? Do you give everything over to Him when you ask or hold onto some of it so you can strategize while you wait?
I wrote last week about discovering your destiny. It was the first time I had really sat down and thought about all the things I had learned in these last two months. However, after having these revelations, I started wondering if I had learned what I needed to on this trip and should now prepare to go home and set all that I had learned into motion.
For about a day and a half, I was really apprehensive about what my next step should be. I tried to pray and give it over to YHVH, but the question stuck in my head. One night, while I was looking for a new devotional to read, I came across one that was called ‘Wait and See’.
Before I knew it, I had clicked the ‘Start’ button and was reading it. From the very beginning, the devotional intrigued me because it was talking about all kinds of waiting. ‘Wait and See’ focused on four different people and their journey of waiting on YHVH to speak to them and answer their prayers.
All of these people had to wait on YHVH. Each one had a different situation they were dealing with, but they all had the same solution. How often do we take the time to wait, today? We live in a world where we want everything immediately; for instance, fast food, fast internet, fast messaging and fast driving. Nobody has the time to wait anymore, but is that really a good attribute to have?
I’m the type of person who likes to get everything done and not leave anything incomplete. However, this week I was forced to leave work before I had finished what I was doing. I was so close to finishing a manifest, but Steve was leaving and since he was my only ride I didn’t have time to scan the last five or so phone cases so I could seal my manifest box. It took almost all my strength to get out of my chair and close my laptop.
When I came home that night, Leona told me that it was a good lesson to learn now, since there will be many times in my life where I won't be able to finish what I’m doing. In a way, this lesson just added to my lesson on waiting because they connect together. I had to wait an entire night until I could get back to work and complete the manifest, and do you know what? I didn’t feel uneasy about waiting because I knew that I would be going to work the next morning and would be able to finish it.
Waiting can be a great opportunity to learn more about yourself and to draw closer to our Creator. Throughout this week, I prayed that YHVH would show me what I should do and asked if I was really ready to go home, and He answered. It took YHVH opening my eyes to see that it wasn't time for me to leave where I'm at and talking to my mom to realize the easy answer to my Canada question.
Another sign YHVH gave me happened on Tuesday morning. I still didn’t know what I should be doing in order to make a decision about flying to Canada; so I texted my mom and she encouraged me to pray and wait on YHVH. Not long after her advice, Steve led our weekly Bible study at work. He told the story of Esther and how she had to WAIT on YHVH’s perfect timing before telling the king about Haman's plots to destroy the Jews.
It was really neat to hear what was on Steve’s heart because it was exactly what I had been praying about that morning! I was so astonished at this sign that I couldn’t speak the entire Bible study. Not only was Steve confirming that I should pray and wait, but in closing the study he read the exact scripture my mom had given me not an hour before! Matthew 6:33-34, “But seek first the reign of Elohim, and His righteousness, and all these matters shall be added to you. Do not, then, worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow shall have its own worries. Each day has enough evil of itself.”
After receiving all these signs and Facetiming my parents, we all agreed that it would be best if I flew to Canada. Once the tickets were booked, relief swept over me and I realized just how much I didn't want to leave just yet. There is still so much I want to do and learn while I'm in the States.
I’m really looking forward to going to Canada this coming week! My dad is going to be flying in the same time as me, so we’ll be spending six days together. I am sad that I’ll be missing two weeks of work but I’m also really happy that I’m going to see my dad. I think spending six days with him is going to cure my homesickness.
While we’re in Canada, Dad is going to be hosting a conference. It’ll be interesting to go to a place with complete strangers. It’s been awhile since we’ve gone somewhere where I haven’t known at least one person.
The only thing I’m not looking forward to is the weather. It’s really cold in Canada and even though I love the cold, everyone has a limit. I’m just praying that the Canadians have good heating!
This week at work, my fellow co-workers officially accepted me as part of the team and it was one of the best feelings in the world. I think one of my main goals in life is to be a part of something. I’ve been left out for too long, it’s time I started interacting with others and being more of a team player. Every day, I look forward to going to work because I know that I’m going to have a good time.
Yes, I’m one of those weirdos who loves their job and working hard. I thrive in a working environment, so being with others who are hard workers but know how to have a good time at the same time is awesome for me! Each day is filled with more laughs and deeper friendships, and I’m enjoying every moment of it.
On Thursday, we received a couple boxes of animal hats. There were many different ones to choose from, so everyone got to choose which animal they were going to be. I was a wolf. For the rest of the day, everyone wore those hats with pride! Haha.
Early the next morning, we all went to a diner for breakfast and half of us were still wearing the animal hats! There were lots of stares but none of us cared because these hats are amazing! I can’t wait to wear my wolf hat in Canada!
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in all circumstances give thanks, for this is the desire of Elohim in Messiah Yeshua for you.”
I wasn’t sure I was going to be posting a blog this week since I didn’t think I had a lot to say, looks like I was wrong. :P In the beginning, this blog post was going to be about how amazing Hairspray Live was and how awesome my new wireless headphones are; but I guess I learned a valuable lesson that needed to be shared. Of course, the inspiration to write this post didn't come until I had completed book of Deuteronomy and was about to get ready for bed, typical.
As this new week begins, my prayer is that YHVH will continue to teach me the art of waiting and how it’s okay to not get everything at once. I’m also praying that He will give me the courage I need to push away any temptations that may come my way (like chocolate, hehe just kidding!) because I don’t want to live a life for myself. One day, my desires will be His, so I'm praying for wisdom to get a step closer to that goal.
Isaiah 40:31, “But those who hope in YHVH will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”